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the door handle. Don t you see? I needed to be changed. I wanted
to so badly, but I d have never gone after any of it if not for you.
Even now, I don t know how much of the life I lead is a sham. I
can t figure out where the sham ends and the real me begins.
Joe closed the distance between them. Their cocks brushed
against one another, sending a jolt of electricity up his spine. Joe
did his best to ignore the sensation. There would be time for that
later. He hoped.
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What we have is not a sham. He braced his hands on Matt s
shoulders, fighting the urge to shake some sense into him. I love
you. And I know you love me.
Matt looked miserable. I do. God, I love you so much.
Then let me in. I don t know where you go when you shut
down, but I m guessing you re working hard to compartmentalize
the pieces of who you are that don t fit the image you have of
yourself. Well, you don t need to do that any longer. You don t
have to hide. You can just be Matt.
Yeah? And just who s that?
You know who you are, Matthew Owens. He poked an index
finger into Matt s chest, just over his heart. Right in here. You
know.
Sure. Matt let out a self-deprecating laugh that held no
humor at all. I m a gay, cock-hungry, horny as hell, slightly
submissive, hell of a good lawyer. Does that about sum it up?
You re a brilliant man who volunteers at the homeless shelter
down the block from your office. You re a kind, supportive, and
considerate friend. You re a loving son to your father.
Matt snorted. My father& who, above all else, wanted so
desperately for me to be myself. Not to hide for decades, like he
did.
Joe sucked in a breath. Matt had told him that his father had
come out as a gay man seventeen years into his marriage to Matt s
mother. She died six months later, while his father continued to
blame himself for speeding her rapid descent to an early grave.
You came out in high school, Joe reminded him. You didn t
hide like he did.
Matt glanced up, his bright eyes fevered. Didn t I? Didn t I do
the exact same thing as him by hiding the parts of myself I was
ashamed of?
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It simply took you longer to acknowledge those parts, that s
all. Now that you know they re there, you re willing to face them
head on. Joe s stomach bottomed out at the look on Matt s face.
You are willing, aren t you?
Silence stretched between them, heavy and damning. What if
Matt decided to go back to his neat little facade? What if he
decided Joe wasn t worth the trouble?
At last, Matt sighed. It was never really a choice, Joe. I love
you. I want to be with you. Whatever the consequences of my
actions tonight, I ll face them head on.
The relief that flooded Joe s core nearly brought him to his
knees. So marry me, then.
Tomorrow, Matt promised, a genuine smile stretching across
his face. Tonight, we have some unfinished business.
* * *
Matt slipped his hand between his body and Joe s, and palmed
Joe s dick. They d both gone soft during their conversation, but he
knew it wouldn t take much to get Joe going again.
He was right. Three strokes from tip to root, and Joe s cock
jerked in Matt s hand, fully erect. Joe s breathing quickened and
his pupils dilated, turning his already dark eyes nearly black.
My turn, Matt murmured as he sank to his knees.
Joe groaned, taking a handful of Matt s curls in his right hand.
When Joe had been the one on his knees, he d been in full control.
But now that they d reversed their roles, it was still Joe who had
the upper hand.
He pushed his hips forward, thrusting eagerly into Matt s
willing mouth. Matt closed his eyes and breathed in the
intoxicating scent of Joe s groin. The patchouli he d detected
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earlier was strong, almost overpowering, but Joe s pure male musk
blended with the remnants of the leather aroma to create a unique
scent all his own.
Joe shuddered, groaning. He tightened his grip on the back of
Matt s head and urged him on, thrusting and gyrating the way he d
done up on that stage, only now his movements were all for Matt.
No one watched, no one hooted and hollered, and the intimacy of
being alone in Joe s small office only intensified the sensations
rolling through Matt.
He pulled away, sliding his hand along Joe s hard length to
take the place of his mouth. No more dancing, Matt said, looking
up at his lover. I want you all to myself.
Joe s low, husky chuckle caused his flat abdomen to tighten
and ripple, drawing Matt s attention to the perfectly shaped
muscles beneath the tanned skin. He ran the tips of his fingers over
Joe s flat abs, and Joe closed his hand over Matt s.
I promise. Ben will just have to find someone else if he s in a
bind again.
Matt nodded. He was going to say more, but Joe grabbed his
wrists and yanked him up to his feet. He guided Matt until his ass
nudged the cheap desk at his back. Joe leaned around him and
swept an arm over the surface, displacing papers, folders, and a
keyboard. The only thing that remained was a flat-screen monitor,
but that was off to the side along the far edge, and Joe didn t seem
concerned about it.
Up, he demanded.
Matt did as he was told, climbing onto the desk. He lifted his
feet so they hovered on the edge, and spread his legs.
He hadn t noticed Joe grabbing a condom, but there it was in
his hand just the same. He rolled it over his hard cock in one
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